I feel like I’m trying to get over you now because I know it will never work :( thinking of being without you literally breaks my heart. I hate to seem like a dramatic bitch but really I would miss you so much. Who would I tell everything to? I feel like I would never have that connection with anyone. It’s not that I’m not strong and need a man in my life, it’s that I would miss my best friend. I would miss having you. It’s not that I like having a boyfriend, it’s that I like having you. It’s all you. But then I think how can I love someone so much who hurt me so much? You have no idea how much it hurt me to see you talk pure shit about how I’m crazy and this and that and then have you literally beg on your hands and knees for me back. This is your last chance and if you fuck up then say bye to something great. Idc if that’s cocky but you will be searching forever to find a girl who cares for you like me. I would stand behind you for fucking anything. I always have. But then you can be so mean to me sometimes and it kills me. I’m so confused idk what to do. I do know that I will be okay either way. I mean I’ll only have like a quarter of a heart left and cry for months but I will be okay and I will be strong and I will make the best out of it. So be careful your playing with fire, fuck me over and I’ll show you what it’s like to hurt

You were and still are my best friend but I’m so scared I’m going to lose you, well more like have to leave you. I won’t stay if I’m not treated right but I know my heart will never be the same. You are my go to person for everything but I’m scared to keep you close because I don’t want to get hurt. Idk anymore. There’s just too many issues with the type of person you are that idk if it will ever work out. I love you and always will but it might be cut short. I wish nothing but the absolute best for you no matter what ever happens with us or even if we ever hate eachother. I hope you have a great life with or without me because you do deserve it.

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babyyyy shower this weeekend and my niece will be born anytimeee now! ugh want herr to come out now. yayyy! :)

How many times can I break ‘till I shatter?

(Source: katrinabina)

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sooo happpy my baby is finally homeee. i just wish this school year was over, or at least the homework. i have senioritis sooo bad and i cant do this english shittt anymore. i just wanna have sleeepovers with joe every nighttt. i love my baby :)

Lately i’ve been hard to reach. I’ve been too long on my own. Everybody has a private world where they can be alone.

THREEE DAYS

TILLL MY BOYFRIEND COMES BACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I CANNNOT WAITTTTTTTTTT!

onee weeeek!

till i get my life back :) and superrr excited for prommmm! mine and joes third prom together :) and my niece is going to be born next month! pluss were graduatinggg. <3<3

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I CAN’T WAIT FOR JOE TO COME BACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK! i seriously need my best friend back. no one can understand how hard it’s been without him here, honestly. i never really talk about it but it’s been so shitty. i can finally have my fucking man back :) i might just piss myself when i see him knowing he’ll back for good, well… hopefully :( one week and five days mothaaa fuckaa

i know

joes coming home in sixteen days but seriously i don’t think i can wait any longer. like i have no words to describe how fucking bad i want him home. when i see him i’m probably gonna beat him up cause i miss having someone to fight. AHHH it’s driving me crazy that it’s getting so close. i used to try not to think about it cause it was forever away but now i’m so ancy i just want him home.